Dear mom and dad, happy anniversary. All of a sudden i was doing thiings and i remembered. I aolways sent you a letter. You loved my letters, but theres no address anymore. I have to send it from here now. Im glad youre together, but its still hard . Dad, i didnt miss you less. Mom was there. For 18 years, but im glad youre together. You always belonged together, even though it feels funny when you, dad , dont walk thru my door again sneaking my coffee you werent supposed to have. Youn thought you fooled mom. She had eyes in back of her head. Then we both got it. I hope the coffee is good where you are. You loved it. Mom, you were so smart. You knew everything about life. I just didnt see it then.i do now. Its a year, mom, that you left. I never understood why--a person like you who nobody can fool no matter how hard they trird. There was no dementia in your family. Why you? Why anyone? There was no dementia in your family. You had arthritis, but finally your back was fixed after a few operations. You were walking without a cane. Then this. In 11 months you were gone. Isnt life ironic--you went thru a few back operations, you had open heart valve surgery--you came thru. You even had hip surgery. You couldnt do this one. This one took 11 months and you left to be with dad. Im glad youre together, but you were the dr for my arthritis, you wrote the prescriptions and the drs signed them. Remember? They loved you. They told me you had guts. They admired you, but they were also sorry you left. I need another neck operation. Its no 3. My lower back is degenerated. I have sciattica like you.i lose my balance soimetimes and fall becaude you know it goes to the head , arms, and shoulders. I remember how you said to put heat on my back. I did. Its ok for a little while but something is better than nothing. Right? You always said--if it doesnt hurt, its ok. Hot water doesnt hurt., so its ok. I miss the phone calls. I miss youn not being here. I think i miss you more than what in have to go thru. I remember how you told me to forget everything about the 2nd neck operation when it was over. You said i will be better. I was for a few years, but you know arthritis. It really never goes. Its really bad now.you understand. You had it, where you are you have none of these problems. Youre at peace. Im glad, but i still see those empty chairs and its hard on some days. Im strong like you said. You were right. I didnt see what you saw, but do any of us see in us wht others see? You even told me im as smart as dad. Dad is a genius. I see im like him. If i dont know something, i read the book and i get it. I can do things i never thought i can do. I guess im a combination of both of you.i used to give him the things to do. Now i do it. I can. You were right.the other day a catalogue came. I threw it out because it reminded me of you mom. Itn was the last time you were here. You loved that store and bought me red blouse. You let me have it about my weight--you said i better gain 10 pounds. I said i have a models figure. You didnt agree. Im still thin. I cant gain weight. You know that, but you said the blouse looked beautiful on me anyway.i wear it. I remember. Im just not ready to go to that store yet.i do everything. I dont let the arthritis get me down. I just wish you were here now.you know whatb hardest--mothers day and fathers day. I have no one to buy cards for anymore. I used to write a letter on the cards. Now ill just write friom here. These people helped me a lot when you left. I couldnt have done it without them. I hope i help them too.i lit a candle on the anniverary of your death mom. I wont ever forget you guys. How can i--you had a big hand in making me who i am today.we didnt always agree, but we always knew the love was there. If it wasnt i wouldn be writng, would i?you 2 have all the aunts and uncles and grandparents. Youre not alone. You have the whole family. You were both so much for family.you even have some friends. Dad nmustb be wearing his sunglasses. Dont be too hard on him. He loves coffee. What can you do! I cant drink it anymore.n i have 2 bleeding ulcers. Im used to it now. I hope youre proud of me. I try. I remembe. I realize you 2 knew what you were talking about all the years i was growing up. I thought you knew nothing. Its funny--i teach my children the same things.you knew it all along. You just let me find out for myself. Happy anniversary mom and dad. Dont worry. Just rest in poeace. You both deserve it.dont only rest. Have fun too. All your favorite people are there. Dad, keep your sunglasses handy. Did mom stand up to god yet?