Hi, a bit of a sad day today,it being fathers day. Son has been to make sure I am ok .He is going to the garden of remembrance later on today and taking his family. This will,I know, be hard for all of them ,being the first one without dad and granddad. They all seem to be coping well.There will be countless families all over the world feeling the same.I lost my own father over forty years ago[ at such a young age] today I have placed flowers by his photo,as I always do on these days.I do the same for my mother whom we lost six years ago.When you think about it,it was a very long time for her to be on her own.Not really on her own, but you will know what I mean. I have been thinking a lot about her these past weeks, and realize what a very strong woman she was. She made a new life for herself, joining this, that and the other ,and helping others. I am going to take a leaf out of her book,and hopefully forge a new life for myself.
Not just yet though, I have to come to terms with my loss,I am also feeling guilty over the fact that I could not cope when things got really bad with hubby, and cannot help but feel I could have and should have done more to have kept him at home with me. I take some comfort from the fact that in his last years he seemed to be well settled,and happy in his own world.
Best regards Jade.x
Not just yet though, I have to come to terms with my loss,I am also feeling guilty over the fact that I could not cope when things got really bad with hubby, and cannot help but feel I could have and should have done more to have kept him at home with me. I take some comfort from the fact that in his last years he seemed to be well settled,and happy in his own world.
Best regards Jade.x