Hi,
I'm not new to this- but i've only done one post before. And my new years resolution for 2020- was to reach out to people on here, but I thought why don't I start now- what's my excuse.
A little bit about my situation- I'm 22, currently studying for my masters and my mother is in the late stages of alzhiemers.
Unfortunately she can't really speak very well, and makes no sense anymore.
I live away from home but go back every 2 weeks to spend weekends with her and my dad- who cares for her full time.
And now-
Well now, I'm alone- crying in my room- because I wish I could be going back to home to spend christmas with a normal family - like my friends.
I wish I knew I was going home to a tree- and to presents and to my mum. But i'm not - Christmas is always so hard.
I wish I knew someone who was in a situation like me- none of my friends understand.
All I want is for her to be able to mother me and direct me and tell me what i'm supposed to be doing with my life - cause so far I feel like I'm somehow doing it wrong.
I need my moms advice. I need my mom.
The thought that she will never get to see me grow up (properly) or see me get a proper career or get married. The fact that she will never be a grandmother - I just despair.
She deserves so much more than what she has been given- she deserves a life and memories and grandchildren and a future - and the disease is just taking from her.
I guess I'm just looking to talking to someone who's been through or is going through it. Who knows what it's like to watch the person they love, the person who literally made them who they are - just vanish.
Please help
I'm not new to this- but i've only done one post before. And my new years resolution for 2020- was to reach out to people on here, but I thought why don't I start now- what's my excuse.
A little bit about my situation- I'm 22, currently studying for my masters and my mother is in the late stages of alzhiemers.
Unfortunately she can't really speak very well, and makes no sense anymore.
I live away from home but go back every 2 weeks to spend weekends with her and my dad- who cares for her full time.
And now-
Well now, I'm alone- crying in my room- because I wish I could be going back to home to spend christmas with a normal family - like my friends.
I wish I knew I was going home to a tree- and to presents and to my mum. But i'm not - Christmas is always so hard.
I wish I knew someone who was in a situation like me- none of my friends understand.
All I want is for her to be able to mother me and direct me and tell me what i'm supposed to be doing with my life - cause so far I feel like I'm somehow doing it wrong.
I need my moms advice. I need my mom.
The thought that she will never get to see me grow up (properly) or see me get a proper career or get married. The fact that she will never be a grandmother - I just despair.
She deserves so much more than what she has been given- she deserves a life and memories and grandchildren and a future - and the disease is just taking from her.
I guess I'm just looking to talking to someone who's been through or is going through it. Who knows what it's like to watch the person they love, the person who literally made them who they are - just vanish.
Please help