I have been a complete arsehole,it means bum.
I have beeen rude,angry,nasty. I will not appologise for that, because, the anger was vented back at me. But, sometimes I hope I have been human.
I have tried to tell the truth, from my point of view. It was my view.
I drank, far too much. I still smoke, drinking has now got better, one or two,take heed, it makes you sadder, and does not work, I know.
I miss Ron like mad.
I have cried so much over the past eleven months, I have a rash around my eyes, I look like a Panda. The rash is from tears. I also looked like ****, I let myself go.
Today for the first time, mum said to me, you look like the old Barb, you look like you again.
I shall never be the old me again, I have to invent a new me.
I gave my self a talking to in the mirror.
But if anyone on here thinks I am a pushover, forget it.
You were all good enough to tell me when I talked ****.
Well, I shall butt in when you talk ****.
When I hear of dear friends going through what I did, my heart goes out to them.
I thimk you all know by now, here if needed.
Just heard a firework, god, starting early this year.
Barb X
PS
What you see, is what you get X
I have beeen rude,angry,nasty. I will not appologise for that, because, the anger was vented back at me. But, sometimes I hope I have been human.
I have tried to tell the truth, from my point of view. It was my view.
I drank, far too much. I still smoke, drinking has now got better, one or two,take heed, it makes you sadder, and does not work, I know.
I miss Ron like mad.
I have cried so much over the past eleven months, I have a rash around my eyes, I look like a Panda. The rash is from tears. I also looked like ****, I let myself go.
Today for the first time, mum said to me, you look like the old Barb, you look like you again.
I shall never be the old me again, I have to invent a new me.
I gave my self a talking to in the mirror.
But if anyone on here thinks I am a pushover, forget it.
You were all good enough to tell me when I talked ****.
Well, I shall butt in when you talk ****.
When I hear of dear friends going through what I did, my heart goes out to them.
I thimk you all know by now, here if needed.
Just heard a firework, god, starting early this year.
Barb X
PS
What you see, is what you get X