I wrote a little while ago about how every time I go to see mum in her NH she cries and begs me to take her home and then accuses me of not loving her anymore.
I had some lovely replies and some suggestions as to how I could try and make things easier for us both. I have tried lying (which I hate doing) and telling her she can come home when she is better. It hasn't made the slightest difference to what she believes and at the moment I feel I cannot face the tears and accusations that I don't love or want her anymore.
I haven't been to see her since last Tuesday and I feel so guilty about that. I keep telling myself that it's not good for her to get so upset and it's better to stay away at the moment but if I am totally honest with myself its me that can't cope at the moment.
My brothers see her occasionally but its only me she gets so upset with and I sometimes feel that I am shouldering the burden of her illness alone.
Thank you for your support and for listening to me, I don't have anyone else to talk to about this and sometimes I feel overwhelmed with my thoughts and the guilt that I feel.
Love Sheila x
I had some lovely replies and some suggestions as to how I could try and make things easier for us both. I have tried lying (which I hate doing) and telling her she can come home when she is better. It hasn't made the slightest difference to what she believes and at the moment I feel I cannot face the tears and accusations that I don't love or want her anymore.
I haven't been to see her since last Tuesday and I feel so guilty about that. I keep telling myself that it's not good for her to get so upset and it's better to stay away at the moment but if I am totally honest with myself its me that can't cope at the moment.
My brothers see her occasionally but its only me she gets so upset with and I sometimes feel that I am shouldering the burden of her illness alone.
Thank you for your support and for listening to me, I don't have anyone else to talk to about this and sometimes I feel overwhelmed with my thoughts and the guilt that I feel.
Love Sheila x