Dear All, i haven't written for some time as I thought I was coping better. But yesterday I had the most terrible outpouring of grief. My poor Mummy is becoming incontinent and now I am absolutely gripped with grief, knowing that it's yet another stage of this horrible disease. I feel so broken. I can't seem to get a hold on myself, I have cried so many millions of tears over the years and I still cannot seem to process what's right in front of my very eyes. My Mum put her hand on my head too yesterday and told me she loved me very much. This broke me too as I have had years of abuse and nastiness aimed at me and she is still usually telling me when I go in 'what have you done to me' and 'I want to go home, you had no right to do this....etc'. I suppose it doesn't help that I don't have anyone in my life to go through this with and I have to be strong for my daughter. I seem to build up inner strength all the time and I know I'm strong but I can feel my resilience slipping away. I'm supposed to be going back to uni in September for my third year on my social work degree but I'm scared I won't be up to it or that something worse will happen to Mum and I just can't cope mentally. Does anyone know what happens once incontinence begins, in terms of other decline/progression of the disease? Lastly they called me from the care home the day before yesterday to say Mum's medication had been given wrongly which upset me greatly as they don't know for how long but they have rectified it now and had the doctor in. This has probably caused some of the upset as I want Mum to be as comfortable as possible and safe plus I also wonder if that could have caused the incontinence. Does anyone have any ideas on that? Also I would like to bring Mum out for the day but don't even know if she's able to do that now, does anyone have any thoughts on whether that's a good idea. Thank you. So so sad.