Oh Dave he's so cute! But even more work for you initially I'm afraid!
I haven't followed all your posts and I don't post often, and maybe someone else has already suggested/asked this question, but are you on anti-depressants?
I really really felt like you a few months back and desperately fought against anti depressants because I felt I was a failure because I couldn't cope and only 'weak' people went on depressants, but then someone explained that sometimes stress just stops the body producing serotonin which the brain needs to be able to cope with the stress, so it's a vicious circle and so after much wrangling with myself and much urging by everyone else I started to take them.
The first ones I tried were awful, they just didn't suit me at all & I thought b****er this, I'm worse than ever, but i got them changed and I have to say they've made a real difference!
Ok the situation is the same, that won't change, but I feel much more in control now and much more able to just function.
I know pills are not always the answer, but if they get you over the "hump" and enable you to see through the mire and then you can see more of a way forward.
And I agree totally with everyone else that you must try to get some respite/ help for yourself!
Walking the puppy will also be a huge mood lifter!
Take care x
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