Always amazed at what so many of you cope with but I cannot cope being prime carer any longer for my OH. Day to day I can manage all the personal care, can deal with the incontinence, the loss of mobility (use wheelchair outdoors), the loss of ability to do basic things like use a TV control, answer a phone, make a cup of tea, even put his socks on... . We do still have fun together too. BUT almost every day brings episodes of fierce temper, verbal abuse that is beginning to become physical (slaps,/grabbing,/ fist in face/:threats) too. Mostly out of frustration and ALWAYS after a continence issue. Almost nonstop repetitive questions and delusional about where he lives, who I am, where his long-dead parents are etc etc. Quite frankly I am not up to this, even with a bit of help (I get 8 hours a week just agreed). Have seen from other posts that when you start thinking care homes are only.option, it is probably right time. Consultant did say I should consider last July so have managed a year since then. Have also been round nice local one that looks great. BUT even mention the idea of respite ' holiday' to OH and that is cue for temper tantrum. Most days he tells me he hates me and wants to either kill me,/ punch me or leave ... but delusional about going to 'his house' ( one he grew up in!) Or will stay with one of his many friends or just get a flat himself. All unrealistic. But how can I organise a CH if he won't go there? He would be self- funding ( for a bit anyway!) and although I have both health and financial POA all sorted, how can I exercise this against his will? In between the abuse and questions there is still a man who knows what he wants.. or definitely what he doesn't. So hard anyway to decide this, but even worse if I have to override his wishes... and not even sure how I do so. Btw he has never had a care needs assessment ( as self- funding!) so he has no assigned social worker.
Oh, so very difficult. Sorry for long post but just don't see how I can make any other choice now... but it isn't just my choice, is it? But I also know I can't take being called a bitch/ cow/******/****/madwoman etc most days. This is not my husband any more.
Oh, so very difficult. Sorry for long post but just don't see how I can make any other choice now... but it isn't just my choice, is it? But I also know I can't take being called a bitch/ cow/******/****/madwoman etc most days. This is not my husband any more.