Hello, I have just joined this forum and would like some help please.
My mum who recently turned 95 has just been diagnosed with dementia (it started off with sundowning), and could no longer live by herself so we have had to put her into a care home. The sundowning has extended into permanent hallucinations, but sometimes my mum is lucid enough to say "I know you all think I am daft, but one day you will find out I was right".
She has become very depressed since being put into the home a couple of months ago, and as I said the hallucinations have become much worse, to the point where she is suspicious of everybody and everything.
When we visit she is totally disinterested in any conversation we try to start and is solely focused on telling us what is happening, which of course is all imaginary. She constantly asks why she couldn't stay in her flat and why/how she ended up "in this hole" (her words). It has got to the stage where we feel unable to visit her alone and have to go in pairs to give support to each other. Yesterday I left feeling I really don't want to go back to visit again but I know I have to.
I am feeling very depressed and guilty and keep crying whenever I think of my mum. I am assuming these feelings are normal?
I feel very alone in this situation, my husband and 2 children both have Aspergers Syndrome (autism) and cannot be sympathetic, the syndrome makes them only aware of their own feelings and needs. I know I should be talking to my sisters about how I feel but I don't want to burden them as they all have their own illnesses and needs to deal with.
I hope someone can reassure me what I am feeling is normal.
Many thanks
Gina
My mum who recently turned 95 has just been diagnosed with dementia (it started off with sundowning), and could no longer live by herself so we have had to put her into a care home. The sundowning has extended into permanent hallucinations, but sometimes my mum is lucid enough to say "I know you all think I am daft, but one day you will find out I was right".
She has become very depressed since being put into the home a couple of months ago, and as I said the hallucinations have become much worse, to the point where she is suspicious of everybody and everything.
When we visit she is totally disinterested in any conversation we try to start and is solely focused on telling us what is happening, which of course is all imaginary. She constantly asks why she couldn't stay in her flat and why/how she ended up "in this hole" (her words). It has got to the stage where we feel unable to visit her alone and have to go in pairs to give support to each other. Yesterday I left feeling I really don't want to go back to visit again but I know I have to.
I am feeling very depressed and guilty and keep crying whenever I think of my mum. I am assuming these feelings are normal?
I feel very alone in this situation, my husband and 2 children both have Aspergers Syndrome (autism) and cannot be sympathetic, the syndrome makes them only aware of their own feelings and needs. I know I should be talking to my sisters about how I feel but I don't want to burden them as they all have their own illnesses and needs to deal with.
I hope someone can reassure me what I am feeling is normal.
Many thanks
Gina