Hi All, I have been a long time browser on here but thought it was time to register. A brief guide to my situation:
My father in law passed away a few years ago and my wife wanted to help look after her Mum who has dementia. We trialled her at our house but it was too much for the MIL so we made the hard decision to sell up and move in with the MIL, building an extension on the house to accommodate our family.
I was happy to do that as family is very important but sometimes I feel like we have taken on too much. We could quite easily put the MIL in a home but we are doing our utmost to keep her at home for as long as possible.
We have a carer who comes every morning to get the MIL washed/dressed/fed and make sure she takes her medication and because of our work commitments we have a sitter who comes and sits with her during the days we are both out at work. We also have 3 wonderful sons who help look after her,
In the last year things have got progressively harder and I sometimes selfishly regret taking this on as it has effectively put our own lives on hold whilst we care for her and cope with the ever increasing issues which confront us. Is it normal to feel like this?
The MIL is in late stages of dementia and doesn't recognise anybody anymore, she doesn't have any moments of clarity anymore and it is an uphill task getting her to eat (She will never say no to a coffee though
) She has started having lots of accidents, soiling herself or just going to toilet anywhere, including in front of the toilet instead of on it. She is still mobile but she tends to just go up and down the stairs all day long talking to herself in the third person and asking to go home. There are other siblings but one lives out of the country and the other hasn't seen her in over a year and previously only came to see her on Birthday/Christmas and Mothers day, I must admit I sometimes feel a tinge of jealousy that he can just walk away from it.
That is my story and I realise how selfish I must sound but I do what I can to support my wife during this increasingly difficult situation. I have good days and bad days when it comes to the MIL but I am doing the best I can.
Does anybody else in a similar situation look forward to going to work? I regularly work extra hours just to delay going home and as I am typing this it sounds horrible but it is pointless lying about it when I came on here to vent a little bit.
Finally and probably the worst bit, I sometimes feel it would be better for everyone if she just passed away, it's horrible to say this out loud but in my eyes she has no quality of life anymore, she doesn't recognise anyone, she is trapped in her own little world and her day is made up of going up and down the stairs and talking to herself in third person, she regularly chats to herself as if she was one of her friends(that was difficult to get my head around at first). I understand all of this is not her fault and she herself would be mortified if she could see what she was like now, she was such a house proud woman without anything out of place and now she is far from it.
Despite all the above I will continue to support my wife and MIL throughout this phase of our lives and thankfully we have a very strong relationship and will get through this at the other side.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and I apologise for me selfishness.
My father in law passed away a few years ago and my wife wanted to help look after her Mum who has dementia. We trialled her at our house but it was too much for the MIL so we made the hard decision to sell up and move in with the MIL, building an extension on the house to accommodate our family.
I was happy to do that as family is very important but sometimes I feel like we have taken on too much. We could quite easily put the MIL in a home but we are doing our utmost to keep her at home for as long as possible.
We have a carer who comes every morning to get the MIL washed/dressed/fed and make sure she takes her medication and because of our work commitments we have a sitter who comes and sits with her during the days we are both out at work. We also have 3 wonderful sons who help look after her,
In the last year things have got progressively harder and I sometimes selfishly regret taking this on as it has effectively put our own lives on hold whilst we care for her and cope with the ever increasing issues which confront us. Is it normal to feel like this?
The MIL is in late stages of dementia and doesn't recognise anybody anymore, she doesn't have any moments of clarity anymore and it is an uphill task getting her to eat (She will never say no to a coffee though
That is my story and I realise how selfish I must sound but I do what I can to support my wife during this increasingly difficult situation. I have good days and bad days when it comes to the MIL but I am doing the best I can.
Does anybody else in a similar situation look forward to going to work? I regularly work extra hours just to delay going home and as I am typing this it sounds horrible but it is pointless lying about it when I came on here to vent a little bit.
Finally and probably the worst bit, I sometimes feel it would be better for everyone if she just passed away, it's horrible to say this out loud but in my eyes she has no quality of life anymore, she doesn't recognise anyone, she is trapped in her own little world and her day is made up of going up and down the stairs and talking to herself in third person, she regularly chats to herself as if she was one of her friends(that was difficult to get my head around at first). I understand all of this is not her fault and she herself would be mortified if she could see what she was like now, she was such a house proud woman without anything out of place and now she is far from it.
Despite all the above I will continue to support my wife and MIL throughout this phase of our lives and thankfully we have a very strong relationship and will get through this at the other side.
Thank you for taking the time to read this and I apologise for me selfishness.