Good Morning.
I’m here and glad I found this group.
A place I can scream bc that’s exactly what I need to do. I’m divorced with no kids and no living siblings (my younger sister passed away 13 years ago).
My mommie who I loved beyond measure had a stroke (she kind of hid it when it happened not to worry me). But it’s left her on a walker and with some dementia to the extent where she can’t be alone.
I’ve had to move into her house to take care of her. I’m sleeping with my little dog on a sofa. I still have my condo but I haven’t slept there since. I also have a rather large job at a nonprofit that is very very understanding. But I still have to do the work.
But I feel trapped all the time with no help. I hired a caregiver who comes two days which allows me to go to work. But not much else. I have a small family. Two cousins who my mom has helped for years are only available on a “limited basis”. And Mom has no living siblings to help. It’s just me. I’m blessed
To have friends who help.
But this morning I was ready to scream.
I just feel like I’m isolated sometimes.
And I feel guilty bc I don’t want to be upset w my Mommie. I woke up and she is on 10. She’s more confused than usual, edgy and anxious. I got her online to watch church, but she’s being so demanding. She doesn’t mean it, and I know it’s just me.
I feel so guilty bc I want to get my nails done or hair washed, I want some of my life back - that just sounds horrible.
I had to go to the back room and pray.
She isn’t sleeping (even after a whole Benadryl) but honestly neither am I (I’m still on the couch). So that’s a large part of it.
Sorry for the stream of random thoughts. I just needed to vent.
I’m so glad I found this group where I can without judgment.
This isn’t the introduction I would’ve wanted but when you find a group like this, it’s what you need.
I’m here and glad I found this group.
A place I can scream bc that’s exactly what I need to do. I’m divorced with no kids and no living siblings (my younger sister passed away 13 years ago).
My mommie who I loved beyond measure had a stroke (she kind of hid it when it happened not to worry me). But it’s left her on a walker and with some dementia to the extent where she can’t be alone.
I’ve had to move into her house to take care of her. I’m sleeping with my little dog on a sofa. I still have my condo but I haven’t slept there since. I also have a rather large job at a nonprofit that is very very understanding. But I still have to do the work.
But I feel trapped all the time with no help. I hired a caregiver who comes two days which allows me to go to work. But not much else. I have a small family. Two cousins who my mom has helped for years are only available on a “limited basis”. And Mom has no living siblings to help. It’s just me. I’m blessed
To have friends who help.
But this morning I was ready to scream.
I just feel like I’m isolated sometimes.
And I feel guilty bc I don’t want to be upset w my Mommie. I woke up and she is on 10. She’s more confused than usual, edgy and anxious. I got her online to watch church, but she’s being so demanding. She doesn’t mean it, and I know it’s just me.
I feel so guilty bc I want to get my nails done or hair washed, I want some of my life back - that just sounds horrible.
I had to go to the back room and pray.
She isn’t sleeping (even after a whole Benadryl) but honestly neither am I (I’m still on the couch). So that’s a large part of it.
Sorry for the stream of random thoughts. I just needed to vent.
I’m so glad I found this group where I can without judgment.
This isn’t the introduction I would’ve wanted but when you find a group like this, it’s what you need.