So sorry for your loss @Cgreen , four weeks is no time at all. Take things slowly., you will slowly adjust, you never forget, the pain gets less and you learn to carry on. Slowly the days get better and I found the good memories coming back until one day the good ones outweighed the bad ones. 40 years of a good marriage far outweighed the 11 living with dementia. It won’t always rain, the sun will be back.