Sylvia you are right I do try too hard, to be brave , to move forward, to get my life set to rights again. But then I have always been that kind of person which is why in a way I have been able to do what I have done, like looking after Ray for all those years. I guess a lot of it is pigheadedness, the Irish in me.
I spent a lot of time this morning talking to people in the shopping centre, people from church, the Lions club and the dementia group I used to belong too. A good friend came along and I had my coffee with her. I guess you could say there was a plan as I also did the two hours of welfare my church does on Friday afternoons as a substitute for a lady who was sick and listening to other people's stories was healing as it always is. There are always those worse off than ourselves.
And yes, I did have a good cry before the day was over.