I'm sorry that you were so sad in the early hours Margaret, it's a difficult time when worries can seem overwhelming. What yours and other posts are bringing home to me, is how different and to me, much more difficult it is having a husband, wife or partner with this dreadful disease. It breaks my heart that my mum has it, but for a life partner it must seem as though part of you is missing and the sadness greater. I'm glad that you are able to talk to others who know just how you feel, I hope it helps.
Gringo, I'm able to bring mum home here because she doesn't remember this as her home, even though it was for eight years, so she sees it as a treat and herself as a visitor. Because of that I don't have any problems - so far- about taking her back to her care home. She is also quite mobile and can tell me if she needs the toilet. I'm making the most of the time that I can do this, and we enjoy each others company. If she was distressed at all at the idea if going back, I wouldn't do it.
Gringo, I'm able to bring mum home here because she doesn't remember this as her home, even though it was for eight years, so she sees it as a treat and herself as a visitor. Because of that I don't have any problems - so far- about taking her back to her care home. She is also quite mobile and can tell me if she needs the toilet. I'm making the most of the time that I can do this, and we enjoy each others company. If she was distressed at all at the idea if going back, I wouldn't do it.