Dad died 1 year ago this March 25th. It was the most painful time. The guilt and flashbacks come to me all the time. I wrestle with whether putting him in a nursing home and eventually bring sectioned led to his death. I question whether the drugs he was given made him worse or would he have got worse anyway. We had little choice as he tried to strangle my mum at home thinking she was an intruder. We had a nightmare few days trying to find out how to get help for him and her. It went badly downhill after he went into the home. He eventually went totally doolally...lying on the floor all the time. He died of pneumonia in the end . I blame myself as i went to see him when i had the flu. I couldn't bear to be away from him any longer. I was on holiday when he died alone in a and e. I saw him after he died but I feel we abandoned him. We were not there. I am not sure he would have known though but I feel guilty.