Sasky I know it is awful, my husband who is in a nursing home has twice this week expressed the wish to die and be with his Mother and Father. Our daughter was really distressed.
About an hour later he asked if his Mother was coming to see us. I said yes when she returned from the hairdressers, he smiled and drank his cup of tea. Hopefully your Mother's thoughts were just as fleeting. It is upsetting, I went and had coffee with a friend and talked about it. Do you have anyone you can chat to? If not come back on here and have a chat, we are all ready to listen, we do it well. TP is the place to go when struggling.
Lots of good vibes coming your way,
Jay