Does anyone else feel the way I do? My husband is in a Care Home and has had Alzheimer's for 7 years now. He has been deteriorating over the past 12 months and since Christmas markedly so. He developed a chest infection last week and as we have a TEP in place for no interventions, they rang to ask about antibiotics. My daughter and I both agreed he should have 1 course. On Sunday when we visited he was very unaware of both us and his surroundings. Then had a phone call yesterday to say he was quite poorly so I dashed off to see him, expecting the worse. Went again today and he is much brighter. I'm struggling, really struggling with the roller coaster of emotions. I had myself absolutely ready for the end, after all we've been facing it for 7 years but this constant up and down is so distressing. I feel guilty about my feelings but just wanted to see if anyone else understands.