It is incredibly hard and I still have waves of guilt and episodes of teary drives home even though we are 4 years on. I know others have offered advice, mine is to hang up my emotional coat at the door of the care home and put on my brave face and smile, not show my real feelings until I leave and that's when I put my emotion-guilt coat back on -as I walk out. It is so important to try to be emotionally positive when visiting PWD as this is the one thing they still connect with even when recognition is gone.
It will get better in time, but those feelings never completely go away
