I find it the same, @Dutchman , always feeling there's something I should be doing and then realising that there's actually no pressure because I only need to consider myself. I think it comes to the years of caring at home when there always really was something that needed to be done and it's not easy to adjust. I seem to find myself jobs, do a bit an then collapse in a heap because I don't have the energy to carry anything through. At the moment the funeral is the only thing on the horizon and given that my son and daughter have taken on the burden of the arrangements I try not to think too much about it. I find myself getting restless around lunch time because in these last weeks that has been the time when I've been getting myself ready to go down to the nursing home. Now I realise that I no longer have that, I really miss it and have to find ways to fill my afternoons. I suppose it's all part of the grieving process. I hope it gets better, but am not too optimistic at the moment. God bless.