Thank you
@Jaded'n'faded and
@Ton3
Please remember that we have each other for such a short time and we can never make the past better. I have so many regrets. Things I ought to have said/not said and done/not done, but all I can do now is my best towards Bridget.
I logically know that there’s no more I can do to improve Bridget’s life, so what about me? I’m reminded often about looking after me.
I’ll start by volunteering in the home and see how I get on. There’s is still a part of me that feels a strong obligation to visit and see and experience Bridget as much as possible. It’s a bond I can’t lessen as I feel I owe it to her to do this. And I know I have a life that needs to be lived. But even if I know she doesn’t remember my visits and that the staff take great care of her, I would feel I’m neglecting her by opening up my life to other things.
It’s two years nearly she left here and everyday since that August 2019 I’ve mentally been by her side. She fell yesterday so she’s in bed and I sat there this morning on her bed just reassuring her. She even got hold of my face and kissed my lips. Both wonderful and heart wrenching when I have to leave.
I’m not being sensationalist if I truly say that if by freak of nature, some tear in the universe I could take her place in that bed then I would in a heartbeat.
Peterx