I’m writing but I’m just offloading really. I notice that I’ve posted over 1800 posts on here since 2019 which humbles me a bit.
Looking back know I was blind to the fact that eventually Bridget would need more care than I could give and my coping would run out. I was, in the end, forced into a corner.
Others - don’t make that mistake. Plan for the eventual. Harsh advice but it’s easier in the end.
I miss her, of course I do, but not the bad stuff. I’m left alone now with the feeling that I’ll remain alone as Bridget was really my only love. Others have their memories and grief so getting together with someone else would be very difficult. We knew each other so well and life together ( pre dementia) was easy and smooth. We had no hang ups.
So dementia has caused what many things do - loneliness. So is the right place to be, on the Forum? I’ll stay even if it’s to help others.
But after a while you realise that any advice has mostly been said before and in the end it’s down to you because dementia destroys options and choices. So we keep on keeping on till we can’t keep on any more and we have to let our PWD go.
Bridget has hurt her big toe and the district nurse has been, treated it and the home is keeping a close eye on her. Try doing that at home when you’re tired, changed someone who’s incontinent, been shouted at, not recognised, wandering round the street looking for “you”, in the shed, at the local hospital, told you’re horrible. I could go on!
Peter