My beloved husband died just over 4 weeks ago in a nursing home. He developed pneumonia out of the blue and I had to make the decision whether to admit him to hospital for treatment or not. He exhibited challenging behaviour when having personal care and I didn't want to put him through the ordeal of drips etc so decided h should just be kept comfortable. It was the hardest decision I have ever had to make and I am constantly confronted by I it in my mind, even though his (new) GP said that is what he would have done if it had been his relative. Although he was having difficulty breathing he was asleep and the nurses injected him to keep him comfortable. I wasn't with him when he. actually died as I had gone home to 'rest' another thing that adds to my feelings that I didn't do all I could for him. As a Christian I know he is now in a better place but will these feelings of having betrayed him ever go? He had been in hospital under section before going to the nursing home and my daughter and I had made a DNR decision there, so I know that she supported me and everyone says that the right decision was made, it was his interests I had at heart etc etc but none of this seems to help.