Hi, must admit to sitting here, feeling sorry for myself after just coming back from town and seeing all the Christmas decorations and people with eager faces looking at all the xmas bargains. This year has been the most difficult we have ever had to deal with, not only because of the loss of my dear brother in law Malc who`s inquest date is still not set yet but its my first full year of dealing with AD and all it has entailed.
I`m sure christmas`s past were different and things were more simple then. We used to get an old cardboard box and start filling it with goodies from October onwardsin preparation for dec 25th.This year we havent. I could feel the exitement running through my veins and tears in my eyes every time i would hear Silent Night over the shop tannoy system. Elaine would turn to me and say "Are you ok?" i would always reply "Its that time of year", this year "Nothing". The only feeling running through my mind is "Whats next?
Does the thought of having AD cause this ?? Christmas in our house has always been such a huge event involving all our family and children as it has been for years. I overheard Elaine muttering "I think Christmas is cancelled this year" whilst in the kitchen. I had to go to the bathroom and broke down in tears. Sometimes things are not said but i can still see the hurt in her eyes and it breaks my heart.
Dear God how i wish i could wave a magic wand and cure everybody of this awfull illness and place peace in the hearts of all that are involved with it past and presently.
Maybe it will pass? who knows? Sorry to ramble on but just cant shake this awful feeling, best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxx
I`m sure christmas`s past were different and things were more simple then. We used to get an old cardboard box and start filling it with goodies from October onwardsin preparation for dec 25th.This year we havent. I could feel the exitement running through my veins and tears in my eyes every time i would hear Silent Night over the shop tannoy system. Elaine would turn to me and say "Are you ok?" i would always reply "Its that time of year", this year "Nothing". The only feeling running through my mind is "Whats next?
Does the thought of having AD cause this ?? Christmas in our house has always been such a huge event involving all our family and children as it has been for years. I overheard Elaine muttering "I think Christmas is cancelled this year" whilst in the kitchen. I had to go to the bathroom and broke down in tears. Sometimes things are not said but i can still see the hurt in her eyes and it breaks my heart.
Dear God how i wish i could wave a magic wand and cure everybody of this awfull illness and place peace in the hearts of all that are involved with it past and presently.
Maybe it will pass? who knows? Sorry to ramble on but just cant shake this awful feeling, best wishes, Norrms and family xxxxxxxxxxxx