Hi
@Margi29
With everything that is going on, I looked at Mum & thought of just letting her go, but both grandchildren were here & I didn’t want them to see that, so I held her hand, talked to her & after 10 seconds she took a breath.
Tonight’s Carer was here on Saturday, just 48 hours ago & she’s just said Mum is going downhill rapidly. I find myself avoiding checking her when I get up, I’m afraid of what I’ll find.
I know she might well rally & get a second wind, but I’m not holding out much hope of that. She keeps saying “I think I’m really poorly”. What can I say to that apart from “it’s ok Mum”
I’m so tired today. Brother came over, he looks beaten by what he’s seeing. He doesn’t know what to do or say to me. He keeps asking if I’m ok (I must look like rubbish for him to ask
). He’s said to call him whatever the time, he will come over, we won’t be able to do anything if it’s 03.00, but he will come & hold my hand.
The religious neighbour S came over while brother was here. Honestly, I’d spoken to her 2 days ago saying Mum is not up to visitors, so round she barrels “I just popped over ....”. Some people have no decency. Yes she may well have seen J coming round, but J comes over all the time, through thick & thin, not just to find the latest gossip
She starts wittering on about how Mum will get better now she’s home. I was too tired to deal with her. I tried looking her in the eye & saying that no, Mum is not going to get better, but she seems convinced she knows, so I threw my hands up & said, no, my mum is dying & walked out.
What in heavens name us wrong with people???? Go away. I can’t cope with you. Silly silly woman