Dear all,
Your lovely thoughts and prayers have worked
Mum asleep all day today, looking peaceful. Thank you so much.
The registrar looked in on us tonight and said mum seemed peaceful and if we needed anything to just ask. Also a lovely nurse took us aside tonight and said mum was now on the LCP and that we can visit whenever and stay overnight if we want. We haven't stayed tonight as mum looks ok and dad is in desperate need of a sleep. Vicky is staying with him and he is having a sleeping tablet tonight. I have to come home for son of course, although I will make arrangements for tomorrow, assuming it is required. We will be back to see her first thing tomorrow.
It is such a relief to see ma pain-free. She is on a high dose of morphine plus an anti-sickness drug and something to dry up the secretions to stop her chest rattling. I just sat and feasted my eyes on her tonight, lost in awe of how much this wonderful woman has done for me over the years.
Dad bearing up well considering but poor Vicky is reliving her time when her husband was in the hospice for his last days. She is more reserved in her outward show of emotions than dad or I and I think it's hitting her hard. Also I have this wonderful place somewhere in the ether which has provided so much comfort to me since I joined, and none more so than this last few days.
Thank you is inadequate, but I do thank you all, all the same.
Vonny xxx