We had a few nights with only one awakening, and I was getting optimistic, still putting off adding the new tablets, Pregabalin, to the Aricept and Memantine.
On Friday hubs had a flu jab at the GP's instigation, and later went off with his usual reluctance in the car with our wonderful helper, and returned in quite a good mood, but the minute the friend left he descended into the depths of despair, which continued until bedtime, and a wakeful night. The theme was " I don't know what the hell is going on" and " please explain it to me properly". I'd tell him each time that he and I were safely at home, with nothing to worry about, but the questions were relentless. I took to counting the seconds between them, and the longest interval was fifty seconds, the shortest was three.
On Saturday we had a slow start, with our usual shopping trip to a supermarket where he kept ramming me with the trolley, always my fault, obstructing people in the aisles and getting belligerent if they said " excuse me please", and everything I said and did annoyed him. We'd missed breakfast, except his cream cracker with his meds, as we usually have coffee and a bacon roll at the supermarket, but I couldn't risk his behaviour in the cafe there, so we came home. He grabbed a pack of hot cross buns....( too much sugar?) and then behaved badly for the rest of the day. Nothing was right for him, he hated everything on TV, and he hated his dinner, didn't want to go to bed until we'd " thrashed this out...our future together and that of all those people who live here... We must monitor everything and start organising a new start".
Eventually he very reluctantly got into bed determined that he would NOT feel better in the morning and that he would be returning to the subject.
After plucking at my nightdress or grabbing my hand several times in the night, he woke me urgently at about 4am, worried about "all the water that's here...I don't know what to do about it." At first I thought he meant flood waters that he'd seen on TV, but it wasn't, it was that he needed the loo and didn't know what he should do about it! He was puzzled when I showed him the toilet, asking if that was really what that thing was for. But he managed, and is back in bed, sleeping.
Goodness knows what today will be like. He gets cabin fever if we don't go out, but I'm probably too tired to drive far...and we're not expecting any visitors today for him to play host with.
I saw Melatonin on Ann Mac's So Bizarre thread, and am wondering if that would help if it's obtainable. Meanwhile, I'll try to keep going with only Aricept and Memantine.