Sure it is not just me! Some days I just get so fed up with things and go into a sort of shut down. My husband is not bothered, quite happy to do whatever I want whether this is hiking a mountain or sitting in bed all day watching a box set! ( not that we actually hike up many mountains...)
It's the school holidays ( yes I am a teacher) so the normal first week has just gone and I don't think I achieved anything, went along to one of his clubs and got tearful with friends that are keeping an eye for me. Reassured I suppose that this club is still one he is managing whilst I am at work and that his behaviour and condition is understood and supported. ( his pants were sopping wet when he returned from the toilet and not one person uttered a word) The sympathy however just made me feel very aware of my new role as a carer however independent he seems to be from the outside world.
I have three teenagers at home at the moment and went for a walk with one of them yesterday for some fresh air, he then went on to tell me how different my husband acts when I am not there. I was made aware that he paces from the sitting room to the front door waiting for me every working day amongst other things. Each holiday I am made aware of new symptons and the progression of this disease and I think this last month I have begun to be acutely aware of its effect on our family. Anyway back to the title of the thread... I was extremely apathetic this week, sat watching tele, doing absolutely the bare minimum, this resulted in me booking four days away which we leave for tomorrow, anything to make me acknowledge that the kids need to do more than watch me mope about the house. But apathy how do I combat it? I am sure it will return!
It's the school holidays ( yes I am a teacher) so the normal first week has just gone and I don't think I achieved anything, went along to one of his clubs and got tearful with friends that are keeping an eye for me. Reassured I suppose that this club is still one he is managing whilst I am at work and that his behaviour and condition is understood and supported. ( his pants were sopping wet when he returned from the toilet and not one person uttered a word) The sympathy however just made me feel very aware of my new role as a carer however independent he seems to be from the outside world.
I have three teenagers at home at the moment and went for a walk with one of them yesterday for some fresh air, he then went on to tell me how different my husband acts when I am not there. I was made aware that he paces from the sitting room to the front door waiting for me every working day amongst other things. Each holiday I am made aware of new symptons and the progression of this disease and I think this last month I have begun to be acutely aware of its effect on our family. Anyway back to the title of the thread... I was extremely apathetic this week, sat watching tele, doing absolutely the bare minimum, this resulted in me booking four days away which we leave for tomorrow, anything to make me acknowledge that the kids need to do more than watch me mope about the house. But apathy how do I combat it? I am sure it will return!