My wife has been suffering from Alzheimers for eight years now. For the final three years that she was at home I was caring for her twentyfour/seven and doing everything, without help, right down to her personal hygeine. In December last year she went into a care home and suddenly I had nothing to do. Christmas, which should have been good as the pressure was off, was awful.
I have friends - some in a motorcycle club that I belong to and others in an all male Church organisation but this means that all of my company is male and I do so miss female conversation, someone to take to a restaurant or the theatre - I'm sure you all get the picture.
Is it so wrong of me? I know that my wife is still here in body but she doesn't really know me anymore and I can only think of myself as seperated. I've made an effort to meet someone for company but as soon as my circumstances are known the curtain comes down but I won't hide the truth from anyone - that would be unfair.
I have a very young outlook on life. I love my motorbike, the theatre, eating out, touring the countryside, walking on the beach, in fact all of the things that make life worth living and I still have a lot of living to do!
There must be people on this site who have experienced the same feelings and I'm open to comments of all sorts from anyone who feels able.
I have friends - some in a motorcycle club that I belong to and others in an all male Church organisation but this means that all of my company is male and I do so miss female conversation, someone to take to a restaurant or the theatre - I'm sure you all get the picture.
Is it so wrong of me? I know that my wife is still here in body but she doesn't really know me anymore and I can only think of myself as seperated. I've made an effort to meet someone for company but as soon as my circumstances are known the curtain comes down but I won't hide the truth from anyone - that would be unfair.
I have a very young outlook on life. I love my motorbike, the theatre, eating out, touring the countryside, walking on the beach, in fact all of the things that make life worth living and I still have a lot of living to do!
There must be people on this site who have experienced the same feelings and I'm open to comments of all sorts from anyone who feels able.