Hello Drgreenthumb, it is clear that youre anxious about this, so i wouldnt worry about "pestering" yout DR thats what they are there for. You do sound as if your very anxious and sometimes that can get us confused at times. I had a very bad bout of depression after i got divorced many years ago, and to this day, even though i know i was married and who to, i remember the wedding day and nothing else. I seeem to have blanked out the 8 years i had with my husband. Ive been divorced for 17 years and the memories havent come back yet. That said, i'm not a doctor so i wouldnt even begin to presume what your're going through could be this or that, the fact that youre worried is enough to indicate that somethings not right. Call your DR now, when youre obviously thinking about things and explain how youre feeling. You've made a start already by coming here to TP and thats good because youre ready to talk. He/she should hopefully be able to allay your fears and give you support. Keep talking and get it all out its not good to bottle things up, take a deep breath,get on the phone and make an appointment and thats you over the first hurdle. I know its not easy but try, you have nothing to lose. take care x