I really feel that I want to share the last few days that I spent with mum before she died on Sunday morning with you all.
The last time I had seen mum was last Wed when I took the children in to see her. She gave me the most beautiful smile ever that day and I thanked her. The children stood at the end of the bed and sang her songs and she watched and listened. I could tell that she was enjoying it. I wasn't really able to see her on Thurs and Fri but on Saturday we got a call from the NH at about 8am to say that her breathing had changed. I got to the NH at about 9.45 and yes there had indeed been a change. Mum had stopped eating and drinking completely in the last 4 or 5 days.
I stayed with her all day and my brother arrived in the afternoon. She had started to have little seizures which at first were distressing to witness and then she had a big one that seemed to go on for well over a minute. This was in the afternoon. We made the decision to stay at her bedside overnight because we just didn't want to leave her. She seemed to be comfortable and I must say that throughout all of this there never seemed to be any pain with her which obviously gave us comfort. She suffered more small seizures throughout the night and we stroked her face and held her and told her not to fight it. Morning came and she was still with us thank God. At about 7.50am we both lwent home to freshen up and do what we had to do. Before we left mum we said to her " we are going now mum to freshen up but we will be back. Don't you dare do anything or go anywhere until we get back ". We said this semi seriously.
My brother went back to the NH at 9.45am. I arrived back at 10.45am and there had been a marked change in her colour. She was thankfully still alive though.I held her hand and stroked her arm and then I gave her a kiss and told her " I'm back now mum so we are both here again. You aren't alone ". I sat back down and was chatting to my brother when I glanced over at mum. I looked at her and couldn't see her chest moving. I pulled the cover slightly off her chest but it was still. Her eyes were half closed but were no longer moving. My brother checked for a pulse but nothing. " I think she's gone " I said to him and she had. She had waited until we were both there and quietly slipped away. I burst into tears because it was such a shock. She looked no different to how she had been looking and still looked incredibly peaceful. My lovely, beautiful, kind, funny mum had just quietly slipped away from us. There was no drama and I feel incredibly privelidged that she allowed us to be there at her passing. My mum was the most amazing woman ever and even in death she knew what she wanted and how she was going to achieve it.
Thank you mum.
LiitleL.
The last time I had seen mum was last Wed when I took the children in to see her. She gave me the most beautiful smile ever that day and I thanked her. The children stood at the end of the bed and sang her songs and she watched and listened. I could tell that she was enjoying it. I wasn't really able to see her on Thurs and Fri but on Saturday we got a call from the NH at about 8am to say that her breathing had changed. I got to the NH at about 9.45 and yes there had indeed been a change. Mum had stopped eating and drinking completely in the last 4 or 5 days.
I stayed with her all day and my brother arrived in the afternoon. She had started to have little seizures which at first were distressing to witness and then she had a big one that seemed to go on for well over a minute. This was in the afternoon. We made the decision to stay at her bedside overnight because we just didn't want to leave her. She seemed to be comfortable and I must say that throughout all of this there never seemed to be any pain with her which obviously gave us comfort. She suffered more small seizures throughout the night and we stroked her face and held her and told her not to fight it. Morning came and she was still with us thank God. At about 7.50am we both lwent home to freshen up and do what we had to do. Before we left mum we said to her " we are going now mum to freshen up but we will be back. Don't you dare do anything or go anywhere until we get back ". We said this semi seriously.
My brother went back to the NH at 9.45am. I arrived back at 10.45am and there had been a marked change in her colour. She was thankfully still alive though.I held her hand and stroked her arm and then I gave her a kiss and told her " I'm back now mum so we are both here again. You aren't alone ". I sat back down and was chatting to my brother when I glanced over at mum. I looked at her and couldn't see her chest moving. I pulled the cover slightly off her chest but it was still. Her eyes were half closed but were no longer moving. My brother checked for a pulse but nothing. " I think she's gone " I said to him and she had. She had waited until we were both there and quietly slipped away. I burst into tears because it was such a shock. She looked no different to how she had been looking and still looked incredibly peaceful. My lovely, beautiful, kind, funny mum had just quietly slipped away from us. There was no drama and I feel incredibly privelidged that she allowed us to be there at her passing. My mum was the most amazing woman ever and even in death she knew what she wanted and how she was going to achieve it.
Thank you mum.
LiitleL.