I came out of the supermarket this morning and realised I had absolutely no idea where I’ld parked my car. It was a heart-stopping moment. It’s big car park and I, literally, had no idea where to start. I do know I felt pretty stupid standing there, with a trolley full of ready meals, every-body else knew where they were going and I clearly did not. For one fleeting moment I had a glimpse into my wife’s world, I felt the panic that she must feel most of the time. The feeling of panic took me by surprise, it was completely overwhelming. Not being able to remember things, like where you parked the car a few moments ago, isn’t just a nuisance, or a bit of a giggle. It matters, or rather the panic that you feel when you realise that you have no memory at all of it, matters. I felt completely helpless. Having no short-term memory stops you in your tracks.
Thank goodness I was alone, no-one to be patient with me. “Perhaps you left it over there, lots of people have this problem, don’t worry , we’’ll find it!”. I think I could have got very aggressive very quickly.
I feel ashamed that it took an incident like this to give me some insight into my wife’s world and how truly frightening it can be.
What I’ve got from my ‘senior moment’ is an even more profound sympathy for those struggling with this every day, and the realisation that we must always make allowance for the feeling of panic that can accompany short term memory loss. They will want us to try and understand, not just exhibit our patience.
Thank goodness I was alone, no-one to be patient with me. “Perhaps you left it over there, lots of people have this problem, don’t worry , we’’ll find it!”. I think I could have got very aggressive very quickly.
I feel ashamed that it took an incident like this to give me some insight into my wife’s world and how truly frightening it can be.
What I’ve got from my ‘senior moment’ is an even more profound sympathy for those struggling with this every day, and the realisation that we must always make allowance for the feeling of panic that can accompany short term memory loss. They will want us to try and understand, not just exhibit our patience.