Evil? I think not
Here I have been castigating myself since my husband was diagnosed with dementia only last September by secretly thinking he would be better off dead - he is in the early stages and from what I have learned so far things will only get worse and worse for him. I query what kind of "life" he will have in a couple of years' time if he goes down hill fast as I understand can happen - what will happen to him if I am not around - my brain is fuzzy with fatigue just thinking about it - if you are evil (and I don't consider you are) then I must be beyond evil. The man I married almost 54 years ago is just not here anymore even though his body is - he is a stranger who has changed beyond recognition, bad tempered, frustrated and accusatory - not at all the lovely mild gentle man he was. If he were an animal (and are we not all animals) consideration would be given to him being "put down". Don't misunderstand me I AM NOT advocating such a move but the thought has crossed my mind. So evil, no - possibly just practical? Sorry this turned out to be a bit of a rant - having a bad day today - - five years as a prognosis - well my lovely daughter in law's Mum has been diagnosed for nearly 7 years now and although frail is still "with" us. - Greekophile
Here I have been castigating myself since my husband was diagnosed with dementia only last September by secretly thinking he would be better off dead - he is in the early stages and from what I have learned so far things will only get worse and worse for him. I query what kind of "life" he will have in a couple of years' time if he goes down hill fast as I understand can happen - what will happen to him if I am not around - my brain is fuzzy with fatigue just thinking about it - if you are evil (and I don't consider you are) then I must be beyond evil. The man I married almost 54 years ago is just not here anymore even though his body is - he is a stranger who has changed beyond recognition, bad tempered, frustrated and accusatory - not at all the lovely mild gentle man he was. If he were an animal (and are we not all animals) consideration would be given to him being "put down". Don't misunderstand me I AM NOT advocating such a move but the thought has crossed my mind. So evil, no - possibly just practical? Sorry this turned out to be a bit of a rant - having a bad day today - - five years as a prognosis - well my lovely daughter in law's Mum has been diagnosed for nearly 7 years now and although frail is still "with" us. - Greekophile