Well, mum going to respite tomorrow, mum go to daycentre on Wednesday tomorrow, I thought I would tell them tomorrow when they pick her up and she can say hello to them, as she like to tell them herself that she going in to care home for 3 weeks.
Social worker email me with address of care home and time that they are picking mum by taxi, also says that she told daycentre and care agency. I stupidly tell mum that daycentre worker are not coming around tomorrow morning, now she gone all paranoid on me, saying why is she going to care home, so I told her its because of the move, I told her this all this morning me understanding that of course she forgotten.
oh no somewhere in her mind, I told her that I have book ticket to go to Gibraltar (as if) we are now having some wired conversation, that is really going no where, because when I say to her do you understand she says she cannot hear me, and she talking to me but really she is talking to herself trying to work it all out, looking at me as I just agree, hopefully to the right thing. But I try to listen, understand its not her fault, nor mine.
I am trying to keep very grounded into my hear and now. roll on tomorrow and 3 weeks rest for me, well if you can call it a rest moving home, but am not moving till the 22 January so shall hopefully get some me time, but that dame feeling of sadness does pop back in when my mum go quite then pop up again and it all beginnings again the questioning and it feel so hard not to say to mum why are you in so much denial, can you understand its you that's got it all wrong, but I don't as I respect her lack of insight, lucky I can let it all out to you all
Social worker email me with address of care home and time that they are picking mum by taxi, also says that she told daycentre and care agency. I stupidly tell mum that daycentre worker are not coming around tomorrow morning, now she gone all paranoid on me, saying why is she going to care home, so I told her its because of the move, I told her this all this morning me understanding that of course she forgotten.
oh no somewhere in her mind, I told her that I have book ticket to go to Gibraltar (as if) we are now having some wired conversation, that is really going no where, because when I say to her do you understand she says she cannot hear me, and she talking to me but really she is talking to herself trying to work it all out, looking at me as I just agree, hopefully to the right thing. But I try to listen, understand its not her fault, nor mine.
I am trying to keep very grounded into my hear and now. roll on tomorrow and 3 weeks rest for me, well if you can call it a rest moving home, but am not moving till the 22 January so shall hopefully get some me time, but that dame feeling of sadness does pop back in when my mum go quite then pop up again and it all beginnings again the questioning and it feel so hard not to say to mum why are you in so much denial, can you understand its you that's got it all wrong, but I don't as I respect her lack of insight, lucky I can let it all out to you all
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