Hi Everyone. This is my first time posting on this forum although I have been stalking for quite some time in the hope of picking up tips to help me cope with our new situation.
I truly hope I don't come across as cold-hearted and I have to admit it has taken me about about 18 months to pluck up the courage to admit "out loud" that I CAN'T STAND BEING A CARER!
I can't stand it. I'm bored. I'm frustrated. I'm resentful.
I try to maintain a cheerful disposition because I deep-down believe that a job should be done well, whether we enjoy it or not. Which is why I was wondering whether anyone can give me tips on how to change how I feel ?
Bit of background: I have been a stay-at-home mum for the last 25 years which was not entirely my choice but was necessary due to my husbands work schedule etc. At every landmark which i set in my mind for the Time That I Would Get A Job, something would happen which would make that impossible.. (I won't bore you all with the details. Please take my word for it)
So anyway, to cut a long story short, just as my youngest child was approaching time to leave school which would signal personal freedom for me, my MIL passed away and I therefore by default became the carer for my FIL who has vascular dementia and is now living with us. My MIL requested on her death bed that my husband and I take care of my FIL so of course we said yes.
Here's the thing...
I'm really feeling resentful and trapped. I can't tell my husband - he seems to think I'm some sort of saint for taking on this role. But in reality I didn't take it on. I was in the house already without a job so it was an automatic assumption that I would. So I did. But I had no choice.
I'm banging on a bit - sorry! But I would truly be grateful if anyone at all can give me tips on how to change your mindset when you cannot change your circumstances.
Thanks
I truly hope I don't come across as cold-hearted and I have to admit it has taken me about about 18 months to pluck up the courage to admit "out loud" that I CAN'T STAND BEING A CARER!
I can't stand it. I'm bored. I'm frustrated. I'm resentful.
I try to maintain a cheerful disposition because I deep-down believe that a job should be done well, whether we enjoy it or not. Which is why I was wondering whether anyone can give me tips on how to change how I feel ?
Bit of background: I have been a stay-at-home mum for the last 25 years which was not entirely my choice but was necessary due to my husbands work schedule etc. At every landmark which i set in my mind for the Time That I Would Get A Job, something would happen which would make that impossible.. (I won't bore you all with the details. Please take my word for it)
So anyway, to cut a long story short, just as my youngest child was approaching time to leave school which would signal personal freedom for me, my MIL passed away and I therefore by default became the carer for my FIL who has vascular dementia and is now living with us. My MIL requested on her death bed that my husband and I take care of my FIL so of course we said yes.
Here's the thing...
I'm really feeling resentful and trapped. I can't tell my husband - he seems to think I'm some sort of saint for taking on this role. But in reality I didn't take it on. I was in the house already without a job so it was an automatic assumption that I would. So I did. But I had no choice.
I'm banging on a bit - sorry! But I would truly be grateful if anyone at all can give me tips on how to change your mindset when you cannot change your circumstances.
Thanks