Mum has been getting increasingly obsessive about me not leaving her alone in the house we share. Even when a sitter/carer is with her I have been called back early because she is so distressed.
I returned from an early morning walk with the dog to find mum upset because she had woken up and had realised I had gone out-usually she sleeps until I am back. She had a bad panic attack and had uncontrollable shakes and did not want me to leave the bedroom. I finally got hold of the CPN, who was with us within half an hour. Mum was dressed and on the point of going downstairs by then. She was still begging me not to leave her, even when I just went into the garden to put out the washing, despite the nurse reassuring her that she would stay with her. The nurse said there was little they could do in terms of changing her medication because she is so reluctant to take anything. She is not eating or drinking much. The nurse's opinion was that mum needs to go into respite care where she hopefully will respond better to professionals than she does to me. It is such a hard decision but I cannot see the situation improving so reluctantly I have agreed for her to contact our social worker to make arrangements. I am dreading the phone call saying they have found her a place but know that there is really not much alternative as if I become ill I will not be able to look after mum anyway. This is an awful disease.
I returned from an early morning walk with the dog to find mum upset because she had woken up and had realised I had gone out-usually she sleeps until I am back. She had a bad panic attack and had uncontrollable shakes and did not want me to leave the bedroom. I finally got hold of the CPN, who was with us within half an hour. Mum was dressed and on the point of going downstairs by then. She was still begging me not to leave her, even when I just went into the garden to put out the washing, despite the nurse reassuring her that she would stay with her. The nurse said there was little they could do in terms of changing her medication because she is so reluctant to take anything. She is not eating or drinking much. The nurse's opinion was that mum needs to go into respite care where she hopefully will respond better to professionals than she does to me. It is such a hard decision but I cannot see the situation improving so reluctantly I have agreed for her to contact our social worker to make arrangements. I am dreading the phone call saying they have found her a place but know that there is really not much alternative as if I become ill I will not be able to look after mum anyway. This is an awful disease.