My world fell apart 8 weeks ago my mum passed away . Mum had Parkinson’s she had had this disease over 12 years and it was managed with medication . My mum lived next door to me with my dad .Feb 2018 my mum had a fall and broke her right hip and wrist , she did get over this but had to use a frame to walk but we managed . June she was sat in the bathroom my dad was helping her get washed and she said she felt funny then just slumped over . She was rushed to hospital and was unconscious for 24 hrs no one knew why , she was breathing alone and just woke up . The hospital were going to let her home but did another scan which diagnosed mum had had 2 strokes . The strokes left her with Vascular dementia . We eventually got her home , I left my job to be her full-time carer . We had measures in place for mums safety incase she got out of bed . Mum managed to get out of bed bypass the alarm mat and fell again at the beginning of Dec this time she broke the other hip and wrist . She had the operation but had a mini stroke in hospital and they couldn’t get her to walk . We had everything set up at home an hospital bed special chair an hoist to move her as she was now bed bound. I continued being mums carer I devoted my life to her whilst having my husband and daughter next door . In the summer of this year we would get mum outside to enjoy the fresh air , she was ok . Mum then fell ill with a bug and that week her organs failed and she died . The last 2 nites we had palliative care to help as I was staying with her day and nite and I was exhausted They woke me up to say it was time I held her head kissing her Loving her talking to her while she passed away .
After mums death I was in shock I was walking around in a bubble my days empty as I had put everything into looking after mum and I was trying to be strong for dad .over the last few week I have got worse I cry all the time I feel empty inside can’t be bothered with anything . I have started on medication for sleep as I’ve been waking up in the middle of a full blown panic attack . I know mum was 85 and had a good life as people point out but she was my mum my best friend my first love .. just needed to get this off my chest and tell someone x
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After mums death I was in shock I was walking around in a bubble my days empty as I had put everything into looking after mum and I was trying to be strong for dad .over the last few week I have got worse I cry all the time I feel empty inside can’t be bothered with anything . I have started on medication for sleep as I’ve been waking up in the middle of a full blown panic attack . I know mum was 85 and had a good life as people point out but she was my mum my best friend my first love .. just needed to get this off my chest and tell someone x
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