There is a lot of stuff in the press and on TV at the moment about carers and it was mentioned that some of us virtually become housebound.
Can I put this past you?
I yearn for respite, I want to lead a normal life. Neither is likely.
However, last night OH's son rang to say he would have his Dad to stay for 3 days or so, in about a month. I was delighted - at first.
But I have noticed in myself recently that I do not enjoy being in the normal world any more - because I have to return to my caring situation. Alone but for OH 24/7. When I enter the normal world - as I did yesterday, I feel completely out of place and envious of those around me who talk about holidays, work, ambitions, life.....
and then I go home, to the Poor Ould Fella, who does not talk to me, is messy, smelly, and all the things you can think of to do with dementia and having a stoma he cannot deal with.
I settle into my weird ( for me) routine, and do not want to stick my head above the parapet into the real world again. Within these four walls, I exist to a point and can reach out via the internet - but its not good, is it?
Can I put this past you?
I yearn for respite, I want to lead a normal life. Neither is likely.
However, last night OH's son rang to say he would have his Dad to stay for 3 days or so, in about a month. I was delighted - at first.
But I have noticed in myself recently that I do not enjoy being in the normal world any more - because I have to return to my caring situation. Alone but for OH 24/7. When I enter the normal world - as I did yesterday, I feel completely out of place and envious of those around me who talk about holidays, work, ambitions, life.....
and then I go home, to the Poor Ould Fella, who does not talk to me, is messy, smelly, and all the things you can think of to do with dementia and having a stoma he cannot deal with.
I settle into my weird ( for me) routine, and do not want to stick my head above the parapet into the real world again. Within these four walls, I exist to a point and can reach out via the internet - but its not good, is it?