I don't recognize myself at the moment, what a strange thing. I was always so positive glass is half... full sunshine on a cloudy day. I'm the one who,helped others see the light. I guess I was too busy in life -my kids, 3 jobs, my community work. Then add friends in there. Very busy but happy life
When I got diagnosed I made my world a lot smaller, constant interaction was noise. You could be one person ... it could be three people, it could be a roomful of people and all I heard was noise. Tv .. Radio... Noice! I did get a little better with this for a while through medication and working really hard to live my new normal.
I have shared that I am not in a very good place these days, for many reasons, which I'm being told really doesn't matter. That frustrates me lol That's what the counselor said, I'm getting caught up in people and things that don't matter in the end ... Matter to whom I don't know, but I guess I'm not going to find my way out of this any other way unless I let go .....
I'm trying to stay positive, my husband said to me yesterday "you have not said one positive thing all day" I'm sure he is right, but It doesn't help to be reminded, it made me feel worse ... I couldn't sleep last night ...all I kept thinking about is where it all went. Everyone around me misses the old me, they don't think that I don't miss that person more than they do? I'm tired of saying I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm negative ..., Im sorry I snapped at you or said the wrong thing, if I'm sorry I don't want to socialize... I'm sorry that I don't have three jobs ...and I can bring in more income coming to the house, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
Ok, I vented... Thank you for listening, time to let go... Light my favorite candle, Meditation and prayer up next .. Then move a muscle and change a thought
When I got diagnosed I made my world a lot smaller, constant interaction was noise. You could be one person ... it could be three people, it could be a roomful of people and all I heard was noise. Tv .. Radio... Noice! I did get a little better with this for a while through medication and working really hard to live my new normal.
I have shared that I am not in a very good place these days, for many reasons, which I'm being told really doesn't matter. That frustrates me lol That's what the counselor said, I'm getting caught up in people and things that don't matter in the end ... Matter to whom I don't know, but I guess I'm not going to find my way out of this any other way unless I let go .....
I'm trying to stay positive, my husband said to me yesterday "you have not said one positive thing all day" I'm sure he is right, but It doesn't help to be reminded, it made me feel worse ... I couldn't sleep last night ...all I kept thinking about is where it all went. Everyone around me misses the old me, they don't think that I don't miss that person more than they do? I'm tired of saying I'm sorry! I'm sorry I'm negative ..., Im sorry I snapped at you or said the wrong thing, if I'm sorry I don't want to socialize... I'm sorry that I don't have three jobs ...and I can bring in more income coming to the house, I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry
Ok, I vented... Thank you for listening, time to let go... Light my favorite candle, Meditation and prayer up next .. Then move a muscle and change a thought