I’ve been following this thread with interest as it has a number of similarities with my mum who has gone into care over the last 18 months. I wanted to offer some words of encouragement so hopefully it’s helpful.
You’re doing a sterling job, and the care you show for your mum shines through. It sounds like you may no longer hear that directly from her, which can be hard, but it’s important to try and remember that you’re doing your best and it’s from a place of love, even if it’s hard at times.
My mum went through a phase for years of constantly ringing, ringing to keep connections, to vent, to share frustrations, any and all times of the day. It’s a way of us knowing she’s anxious, even when she doesn’t know what’s causing it. More recently she has moved to a stage where her anxiety is under control, both through circumstance of being in a dementia care home who can better server her demanding needs but also by ensuring she’s on the right medication to address her dementia condition. This has meant the calls have dropped off, although I also suspect dementia is moving to a place where using a phone is less easy.
It hasn’t been an easy 18months. There was trial and error. There was tears, but with each change came a better solution for mum even if she couldn’t see it. We’re on our second care home and hopefully this seems to be a better fit.
But the first home mum ever went into was transformational for her diagnosis. They see this condition regularly and were much better than I or a GP who sees mum for 5mins every few months at understanding mums care needs. They could articulate it to social services and medical professionals better and got mum the medical support services she needed. Mums quality of care went up, and that feels at odds with what she should have got staying at home. The routine they follow also gives mum certainty in what’s happening and when - this helps her stabilise and reduces anxiety. I could never offer that in a family home which needs to be responsive to children.
Anyway, I just wanted to say you’re doing great. It can be hard, the hardest, at times. Make sure you get some support from someone too, my wife was my rock to lean on when I wanted to break down. And you will get there. You sound like a trooper, so keep moving forward for you all and the positive change will come.