My mum has a rare form of AD. Previous to this my grandad had AD and not a day goes by when i dont think to myself why me and my family we have never done a thing wrong but we seem to be being punished for something unknown. This illness is very very cruel and i am always trying to find out reasons for my mum and my grandad getting AD eg.... in my mums case did she get ill because she had early menopause and then subsequently went on HRT. There were reports back along that suggested HRT was related to AD. It is also very hard to think about my future, am i going to get it? With mum having it and my grandad which is my dads dad i have the genes coming from both sides and i dont want to end up not being able to do things for myself. I have 3 children and a doting partner and i dont like to think of them having to take care of me that is my job. I find it very difficult some days as i think everyone does but that doesnt help i very often feel that i am the only one in this position. I can talk to my family and friends and they listen but they dont seem to understand.