I've just been to see mum in the care home and I'm sad to say I basically told her to give up and die and I hate myself for it. I've not seen her since the weekend as I'm back at work and she's just hanging on. She's so desperately sad, she's scrunched up in on herself wherever she is bed or chair, she hardly ate with me but then the nurse was all excited because she ate a pudding at lunch as if that's the best news she could tell me! Then I also think mum is starting with her third chest infection in a month and when I told the nurse and asked her to tell the GP to call me before making any decision on medication she looked at me as if I was the devil!
Mum just kept saying over and over I don't want to go, or I have to do something and I kept saying it's ok I've got everything sorted, you can go for a rest, I talked about her mum, dad and sister (all dead) and our caravan we used to have with our family for our holidays. I also put photos of her mum, dad, sister and my son where she could see them.
I've just had a good cry at the bus stop but I just want it to end.
I'm sorry for such a depressing post, and hope that some of you out there have managed a good day, and for those who haven't I just wanted to say go for a good cry and we'll get to tomorrow together x
Mum just kept saying over and over I don't want to go, or I have to do something and I kept saying it's ok I've got everything sorted, you can go for a rest, I talked about her mum, dad and sister (all dead) and our caravan we used to have with our family for our holidays. I also put photos of her mum, dad, sister and my son where she could see them.
I've just had a good cry at the bus stop but I just want it to end.
I'm sorry for such a depressing post, and hope that some of you out there have managed a good day, and for those who haven't I just wanted to say go for a good cry and we'll get to tomorrow together x