Visited mum with my sister this morning. She was asleep when we arrived so we were able to have a good chat with mum's named nurse. The agitation is worse than ever. Thursday was particularly bad and they couldn't get mum to take any medication and so had to give her intra-muscular injections of Haloperidol. The consultant came to see mum on Friday and has changed the injections to Acuphase, he has also started mum on Fentanyl patches in case she is in pain. She remains on special obs with a nurse 1 to 1.
When we went to see mum she was extremely agitated, aggressive, lashing out, nipping, trying to bite.... It was horrid to see her like that
She can barely walk, needing 2 staff to support her. When she needed the loo and we rang the buzzer 5 staff came within seconds (3 nurses and 2 carers) it took 4 of them to get her to the toilet and sorted out. She continues to refuse most food although she did eat half an M+S eccles cake we had brought for her (an favourite treat from the good old days). Her speech was very poor apart from when she very clearly stated 'I just want to die'.
My sister got a bit weepy at one point (it's a couple of weeks since she has seen mum and there's been quite a big change). I held it together until I came home when I had a good blub!
It was a really tough visit. I am so grateful for the brief calm time I had with my darling mum on Wednesday, who knows if I'll ever have that again.
Had another weepy call from dad this evening
I am now sitting down with a much needed glass of cider.
Karen xx