Hi,
I haven’t posted on here for a while but tonight I am at a loss of what to do.
Just to recap; I’m 22 and my mother has Alzheimer’s, she was diagnosed in 2011 and I had to care for her for a long while. Now my step-dad and a part-time carer care for her, I could no longer care for her because the strain on my already bad mental health became literally life-threatening.
Tonight I hear my step-dad and mum coming upstairs to bed, firstly I hear banging like someone falling downstairs and then I hear her screaming.
Soon after I get a knock on my door from my step-dad. He asks me to come into their bedroom, so I do...
What I then see, is what I can only describe as the most disturbing thing I’ve ever seen.
My mum is sat on the edge of the bed, completely crippled over, shaking, wrists/hands bent backwards and her head just hanging down. I couldn’t see her face. All I could see was this crippled body. It honestly looked like the image of death.
I ran back into my bedroom and burst into tears. I don’t know what to do. I can’t get it out of my mind. I don’t know if I ever will. I’m scared to go to sleep because i know I’ll have a nightmare.
I think that the only thing worse than having your mother die, is watching her slowly and painfully disintegrate into a dying skeleton and basically get closer and closer to death every day.
She is so underweight. I think her BMI last time it was calculated was 15 something.
But honestly seeing what I’ve just seen wasn’t like seeing a person, it was like seeing a skeleton.
My step-dad did knock on my door again and he told me he is incredibly stressed and she is very very unwell. I told him I love him and gave him multiple hugs. He said he just wants me to be happy which made me cry even more.
I am in SO much pain. I’ve been struggling immensely with my own mental health over the past few months and right now I am struggling to stay strong.
This is just too painful to even write in words, how am I ever supposed to do anything with my life when I’ve now got a clear image of my mother like that in my head?
I’m also very worried about my step-dad. When I cared for her it drove me to the edge, I just don’t want it to do the same to him.
Nobody should have to go through this. Nobody.
I don’t know if anyone can help but i thought I’d write this anyway.
Thank you for reading
I haven’t posted on here for a while but tonight I am at a loss of what to do.
Just to recap; I’m 22 and my mother has Alzheimer’s, she was diagnosed in 2011 and I had to care for her for a long while. Now my step-dad and a part-time carer care for her, I could no longer care for her because the strain on my already bad mental health became literally life-threatening.
Tonight I hear my step-dad and mum coming upstairs to bed, firstly I hear banging like someone falling downstairs and then I hear her screaming.
Soon after I get a knock on my door from my step-dad. He asks me to come into their bedroom, so I do...
What I then see, is what I can only describe as the most disturbing thing I’ve ever seen.
My mum is sat on the edge of the bed, completely crippled over, shaking, wrists/hands bent backwards and her head just hanging down. I couldn’t see her face. All I could see was this crippled body. It honestly looked like the image of death.
I ran back into my bedroom and burst into tears. I don’t know what to do. I can’t get it out of my mind. I don’t know if I ever will. I’m scared to go to sleep because i know I’ll have a nightmare.
I think that the only thing worse than having your mother die, is watching her slowly and painfully disintegrate into a dying skeleton and basically get closer and closer to death every day.
She is so underweight. I think her BMI last time it was calculated was 15 something.
But honestly seeing what I’ve just seen wasn’t like seeing a person, it was like seeing a skeleton.
My step-dad did knock on my door again and he told me he is incredibly stressed and she is very very unwell. I told him I love him and gave him multiple hugs. He said he just wants me to be happy which made me cry even more.
I am in SO much pain. I’ve been struggling immensely with my own mental health over the past few months and right now I am struggling to stay strong.
This is just too painful to even write in words, how am I ever supposed to do anything with my life when I’ve now got a clear image of my mother like that in my head?
I’m also very worried about my step-dad. When I cared for her it drove me to the edge, I just don’t want it to do the same to him.
Nobody should have to go through this. Nobody.
I don’t know if anyone can help but i thought I’d write this anyway.
Thank you for reading