Hello all - I am hoping someone can give me some advice for moving my life on. I spent the last few years looking after/helping my parents (was also working). My mum died in Oct 2015 and I then put all my time, emotions and effort into supporting my dad (who went into full time care in 2012). My dad was treated badly in his previous care home, which contributed to my mum's sudden death. Anyway I moved him 3 months after she died. I spent all my time making sure he was well, I fed him, gave him drinks, rubbed his feet when they were cold.... everything my mum would have done. Sadly, he passed away in July 2017 following a very long and protracted illness and was bed bound for most of the last 3 years of his life. I know deep down he is in a better place, but I cannot seem to muster any motivation or pleasure in life. I think I was still not over mum's death when dad went, so it all seems too much. I am working, but just going through the motions. I read an article once when this man wrote that when his parents died he felt "hollowed out". This is just how I feel. My parents did not believe in self pity, so I know they would be telling myself to pull myself together! I have a lot of extra time on my hands now that dad has gone... how do I make the most of it? Sorry to ramble on.