As my previous threads have commented my much loved OH is getting weaker, this time it seems to be a physical decline rather than cognitive. He is becoming unable to support his own weight so transfers, dressing, washing etc are all more of a challenge. At this rate he will be wheelchair dependent very soon. I am sad he has enough awareness to be anxious about this, both for its limitations for him, and for the impact on me. I know I have dreaded him needing a wheelchair as due to some problems with my legs I find it hard to push for long, or up slopes. So todayI have been awake since 4am and not able to shift this tearful mood. I am very worried that in a few months or even weeks, I will be finding it too hard physically to cope We have been waiting weeks for an OT assessment, I am told everyone on the waiting list is urgent so no early advice or support from there. I have good support from family at the weekends and carers come every morning but obviously cannot be there every time he needs to move around or be changed. He needs help with every aspect of his care. Our GP reviewed him this week and found him noticeably weaker, specially his right arm and left leg, and wondered if he has had tiny strokes, although my OH has no history of BP problems; he has ordered a brain scan which may help diagnosis but I can't see it helping practically. Sorry to moan, thanks for being there.