Hi, I've not been on for some time, my Mum sadly passed away yesterday after 6 long years with Alzheimers Disease, she was only 70
I found the whole end of life and watching Mum die the most distressing thing of all the journey and one I will never forget. The thing that is bothering me most is that I feel incredibly calm and 'normal' today like its not happened and I just can't seem to remember what Mum was like before the illness took hold
The last image of her from last night was so upsetting that I had to rip out a photograph of her from my wedding album to have by my bedside just so I could hold on to what she looked like before.
I know I am in the very early stages of loss, but I'm shocked at how un-emotional I am, I'm even thinking of clearing out her room in the care home tomorrow, just to get it done, so I don't ever have to go back there. Surely I should be a bit more devastated???
I found the whole end of life and watching Mum die the most distressing thing of all the journey and one I will never forget. The thing that is bothering me most is that I feel incredibly calm and 'normal' today like its not happened and I just can't seem to remember what Mum was like before the illness took hold
The last image of her from last night was so upsetting that I had to rip out a photograph of her from my wedding album to have by my bedside just so I could hold on to what she looked like before.
I know I am in the very early stages of loss, but I'm shocked at how un-emotional I am, I'm even thinking of clearing out her room in the care home tomorrow, just to get it done, so I don't ever have to go back there. Surely I should be a bit more devastated???