Today started off normally or so I thought - or hoped. However, at breakfast, Alan wanted to know how we'd get to the airport. I then understood that he thought we were going today Maybe this came about because earlier I'd asked him to try on some swimming shorts I'd bought him.
We then went to visit Alan's daughter and her partner started to say some awful things which he thought were funny. I was too shocked to say anything and it's only now at the end of the day that I actually feel the hurt. He said things like "it must be a barrel of laughs at your house". Then he was joking about making a T-shirt for Alan with the hotel name and address on it in case he gets lost in Rhodes. Alan didn't understand any of this but I did. He was really thinking that it was funny and all because Alan couldn't understand something we were trying to explain to him about an opticians appointment.
I'm mad with myself for not dealing with it at the time and I just can't understand why Alan seems 10 times worse when we are with other people. When it's just me and him there seems to be so much normality and understanding and conversation (believe it or not). When other people are there Alan is like another person and I so much want people to see how he is most of the time.
I am seriously questioning my own sanity at the moment and wondering whether what they experience is reality. I sounds crazy but right at this moment I really don't know.
Helen
We then went to visit Alan's daughter and her partner started to say some awful things which he thought were funny. I was too shocked to say anything and it's only now at the end of the day that I actually feel the hurt. He said things like "it must be a barrel of laughs at your house". Then he was joking about making a T-shirt for Alan with the hotel name and address on it in case he gets lost in Rhodes. Alan didn't understand any of this but I did. He was really thinking that it was funny and all because Alan couldn't understand something we were trying to explain to him about an opticians appointment.
I'm mad with myself for not dealing with it at the time and I just can't understand why Alan seems 10 times worse when we are with other people. When it's just me and him there seems to be so much normality and understanding and conversation (believe it or not). When other people are there Alan is like another person and I so much want people to see how he is most of the time.
I am seriously questioning my own sanity at the moment and wondering whether what they experience is reality. I sounds crazy but right at this moment I really don't know.
Helen