After yesterdays emotional rollercoaster for Alan (and myself) it somehow meant that Alan missed his afternoon rest. This meant he was not particularly amenable with the sitter at (Moderator note: care home name removed as per T & Cs) last night whilst I worked. He went to bed fairly early but was restless throughout the night and so he didn't have good quality sleep. This resulted in him being irritable with the sitter this morning.
I was running very late this morning. I had to attend something to do with my sister. I also had to do some essential shopping. On the way to my sister's I was experiencing extreme stress, anxiety and worry about myself. I was feeling like I was in a sort of fog. I remembered Tuesday and not remembering what year it was and not being able to work out when 1995 was I kept thinking it was three years ago and got confused by it. I didn't realise until nearly a day later the length of time betweeb 1995 and today's date When I got to the do, the new Manager kept saying that she was so pleased that I'd been able to attend and that I was wonderful I told her how stressful it was in order to be able to attend and she was not interested - she was only able to offer me the spiel about how pleased she was that I'd attended. It caused me even more stress because of her inability to recognise the seriousness of what I was telling her. I actually told her that I felt I, too, had a dementia and was finding it very difficult right at that moment. She ignored me and wanted to introduce me to so and so, and then so and so. I touched her arm and said "I don't think you are listening to what I am telling you. I can't, at this moment in time, take in one iota of additional information". I did not have the capacity to take in one single thing She then stopped and gave me some breathing room.
It was time to head off home to relieve the sitter and get ready for the dentist. It was throwing it down with rain and the car windscreen wipers wouldn't work I drove (without wipers) for about 2 miles in the middle of nowhere to a garage and asked if they could help me as it was an emergency that I get back home. When the mechanic started up the car the wipers came on I said I couldn't believe that and he said it happens sometimes and off I went.
When I got home Alan was sundowning and was unhappy with the sitter. I knew it wasn't the sitter because Alan was not alright this morning and I think it is simply because of all the emotions yesterday and him missing out on his afternoon rest.
I went for a filling to the dentist and had to take Alan with me because I daren't leave him home alone. The cold sharp air seemed to clear his head and he seemed a bit less lost and confused.
Tomorrow I have a massive meeting and needed Crossroads to come up with some extra sitting hours in order for me to attend. To cut a long and stressful story short, they have been able to find another one of his sitters to make up the extra time I then have to come back from this meeting and work.
After this week everything should calm down. I cannot possibly work at this capacity any more but I just have to get through this week.
Sorry for such a long post but I felt I wanted to share another side to life for me at times
Thank goodness for TP cos I daren't think where I'd be without you all.
Love
I was running very late this morning. I had to attend something to do with my sister. I also had to do some essential shopping. On the way to my sister's I was experiencing extreme stress, anxiety and worry about myself. I was feeling like I was in a sort of fog. I remembered Tuesday and not remembering what year it was and not being able to work out when 1995 was I kept thinking it was three years ago and got confused by it. I didn't realise until nearly a day later the length of time betweeb 1995 and today's date When I got to the do, the new Manager kept saying that she was so pleased that I'd been able to attend and that I was wonderful I told her how stressful it was in order to be able to attend and she was not interested - she was only able to offer me the spiel about how pleased she was that I'd attended. It caused me even more stress because of her inability to recognise the seriousness of what I was telling her. I actually told her that I felt I, too, had a dementia and was finding it very difficult right at that moment. She ignored me and wanted to introduce me to so and so, and then so and so. I touched her arm and said "I don't think you are listening to what I am telling you. I can't, at this moment in time, take in one iota of additional information". I did not have the capacity to take in one single thing She then stopped and gave me some breathing room.
It was time to head off home to relieve the sitter and get ready for the dentist. It was throwing it down with rain and the car windscreen wipers wouldn't work I drove (without wipers) for about 2 miles in the middle of nowhere to a garage and asked if they could help me as it was an emergency that I get back home. When the mechanic started up the car the wipers came on I said I couldn't believe that and he said it happens sometimes and off I went.
When I got home Alan was sundowning and was unhappy with the sitter. I knew it wasn't the sitter because Alan was not alright this morning and I think it is simply because of all the emotions yesterday and him missing out on his afternoon rest.
I went for a filling to the dentist and had to take Alan with me because I daren't leave him home alone. The cold sharp air seemed to clear his head and he seemed a bit less lost and confused.
Tomorrow I have a massive meeting and needed Crossroads to come up with some extra sitting hours in order for me to attend. To cut a long and stressful story short, they have been able to find another one of his sitters to make up the extra time I then have to come back from this meeting and work.
After this week everything should calm down. I cannot possibly work at this capacity any more but I just have to get through this week.
Sorry for such a long post but I felt I wanted to share another side to life for me at times
Thank goodness for TP cos I daren't think where I'd be without you all.
Love
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