Not nice weather again. Do take care of yourself as you are obviously not quite fit again yet. Can't wait to get out in the garden but it's so slippery at the moment that I've only managed to cut one lawn and prune the roses. However, have been given permission to restart Pilates. Yeah!
I haven't pruned the roses Verity - it's been so mild, in spite of the rain, that I was afraid to! Is it too late? By "prune", I mean chop them down - I've no idea how to prune them, but most of them, I did actually cut down to about half their size back in the Autumn, so I think they will do ok. There's just one I couldn't because a giant sunflower was leaning on it! And it needs cutting down badly, because it has keeled over and I had to tie it to the fence! So maybe I'll just chop it off for tidiness, if nothing else. I suppose if it dies, I can replace it, can't I? It's a Musk Rose, and absolutely heavenly - none of my roses look much cop - they were all bought for their scent, all old fashioned ones.
I had a chat with a friend on the phone (sitting in the pitch dark in the living room because I couldn't be bothered getting up to switch the light on!) and I felt much better after it. She assures me that it's all still part of "the apathy of grief", and although there will be times I'm fine, there will be times like this, when there seems little point in doing anything - and especially as I'm obviously not fully recovered from whatever nasty virus I had last week. I think she's right too, although I hadn't thought about it, in that the struggle I had over what turned into two months, getting William's headstone done - being promised each week that it was being done, and would be finished "by Friday", going to the cemetary and finding that it hadn't even been started and having to phone again, and being given another batch of excuses - and yes, I know the filthy weather had a lot to do with it, but there
were several opportunities to do it, and it simply wasn't done. It was so upsetting. However, yesterday I phoned again to tell the guy that one of William's family is arriving from the US on Sunday, and I just won't know what to tell them as to why it hasn't been done yet - and he said that the foundadion was done last week, and the stone was being put up "tomorrow", which was today. He said it would have been finished last week, but he didn't want to just sandblast the interlocking rings that William wanted onto the stone, and carving them took a lot longer than he had anticipated - but he said it does look very well. I will go during the week and see it. Maybe. It's a big thing, I'm finding. A big part of me doesn't want to see it.
Thursday would be my dad's birthday - there was only 3 months between him and William. Can't imagine dad at 85! He died when he was only 69, of leukaemia. I plan on taking mum out for lunch on Thursday. We always do something - either go for coffee or lunch or I take her some flowers or something. And I feel like going out myself, by golly!