The onset of summer marks the passage of time and Im feeling imense sadness.... as certain annual events serve to demonstrate the progression of this awful disease.
Last week marked our daughters sports day and summer fete at her primary school (held on the same day) This year my partners progression of the disease was more marked and the event along with others has highlight his diminishing abilities over a passage of time.
Two years ago he was able to drive himself to our daughters school and help put up gazebos and helped set up the event engaging with other parents and freinds.
Last year he didnt drive but enjoyed coming with me to the event and we watched our daughter run her races and then spent time with her at the fair (whilst I ran a stall) giving her pocket money to buy things etc etc. Even buying me drinks and food from the BBQ. And ever the tidier picking up bits of rubbish across the playground at the end of the event.....
This year I collected him just before the event.... it was a very hot day and he sat in the shade but during the races he really didnt understand what it was all about or even why he was there. In the end I felt he wasnt able to enjoy the event and decided to take him home where it was cooler and he would be more comfortable.
It was a very sad day for me....at least our daughter saw he was there and whilst i didnt mention that I had taken him home early, it was more upsetting that he had not even noticed her race, or understood what he was watching or really known who she was.....
The onset of the school summer holiday brings the disease even more into focus.......In years gone by we always enjoyed several holidays abroad including during the holidays and to different places. The last time we travelled abroad was in 2011 .....Last year a very short break demonstrated sadly that that our family holiday - even in this country were finished (too much confusion for partner ). But we were still able to enjoying some really lovely picnic days out to local zoos, parks and places of interest, theatres etc which helped us to maintain a semblance of family life.
This summer it seems that we are facing a diminishing circumferance of local places to visit. The heat hasnt helped, but it seems to be so much harder to get mobilised - his walking is very slow (although he is still mobile) I have to think carefully about where we can go to maintain his and my daughters interests - he does still have interest in things but its so much more difficult.......Even theatre and cinema are now too difficult and I know it will be only a matter of time before his world centers around our home.......Its so sad and Im frightened................
Last week marked our daughters sports day and summer fete at her primary school (held on the same day) This year my partners progression of the disease was more marked and the event along with others has highlight his diminishing abilities over a passage of time.
Two years ago he was able to drive himself to our daughters school and help put up gazebos and helped set up the event engaging with other parents and freinds.
Last year he didnt drive but enjoyed coming with me to the event and we watched our daughter run her races and then spent time with her at the fair (whilst I ran a stall) giving her pocket money to buy things etc etc. Even buying me drinks and food from the BBQ. And ever the tidier picking up bits of rubbish across the playground at the end of the event.....
This year I collected him just before the event.... it was a very hot day and he sat in the shade but during the races he really didnt understand what it was all about or even why he was there. In the end I felt he wasnt able to enjoy the event and decided to take him home where it was cooler and he would be more comfortable.
It was a very sad day for me....at least our daughter saw he was there and whilst i didnt mention that I had taken him home early, it was more upsetting that he had not even noticed her race, or understood what he was watching or really known who she was.....
The onset of the school summer holiday brings the disease even more into focus.......In years gone by we always enjoyed several holidays abroad including during the holidays and to different places. The last time we travelled abroad was in 2011 .....Last year a very short break demonstrated sadly that that our family holiday - even in this country were finished (too much confusion for partner ). But we were still able to enjoying some really lovely picnic days out to local zoos, parks and places of interest, theatres etc which helped us to maintain a semblance of family life.
This summer it seems that we are facing a diminishing circumferance of local places to visit. The heat hasnt helped, but it seems to be so much harder to get mobilised - his walking is very slow (although he is still mobile) I have to think carefully about where we can go to maintain his and my daughters interests - he does still have interest in things but its so much more difficult.......Even theatre and cinema are now too difficult and I know it will be only a matter of time before his world centers around our home.......Its so sad and Im frightened................